What do swans sing?

No school = no reason to blog, haha. Anyways my days haven't been that interesting either. Been idling my time away at home doing random stuff, so much so my mom says I've idled enough. Hahaha. :P

And nowadays whenever I meet up with friends, somehow the topic of work always comes up. It's extremely odd, to me I guess. The word "work" just seems to add extra age and makes everyone sound so old. Yeah I know I'm just spoilt heh heh hehhhh

Still missing the days when I could go to school and see my friends everyday, rain or shine :(((( Now the only time I can see them is through planned outings and even then it's not the same. Eating out isn't the same as eating in the canteen. (for one thing, the food outside is much better HAHA) Plus we're all not in uniforms hahaha random point but yeah, the school atmosphere's just gone. Though I'm just glad I can still see them frequently for now :)

Went sunway resort with jasper, steph, bryan and brian last last week. It was quite fun! My favourite part was going back to the hotel room every night and playing munchkins yay :D The theme park was quite fun too though I still prefer lazing around in the hotel room more hahahaha. PLUS I GOT VANDREAD STAGE 1 AND 2 JAPANESE AUDIO ENGLISH SUBS AT THE SHOPPING CENTRE MY LIFE IS COMPLETE WOOHOO The shopping centre is crazy huge. Bigger than vivo I think? And they have this shop where practically half the shop is anime vcds/dvds while the other half is normal dramas/cartoons/movie dvds, and another shop which is PURELY ANIME HAHA. They've got every. kind. of. anime. you. could. possibly. think. of.

I keep thinking of food nowadays for no reason, and I keep thinking of eating until I start getting psychologically hungry hahaha. I think I'm addicted to food, and eating good food. :(

So, I guess I'm kinda done with blogging, there really doesn't seem to be a point anymore. The good thing about keeping a blog is that it forces me to journal, forces me to think deep within the cavernous recesses of my brain for a subject matter to write about, and forces me to think of ways to phrase and put down my thoughts into long, clear, coherent sentences, unlike some things like smsing. Or facebook. Or even coughtwittercough. (I hate the idea of twitter, it's kinda lame) My ability to articulate myself is slowly diminishing, sadly. I'm taking longer to think of even one word to accurately sum up what I want to say, and for some queer, strange reason my chinese is improving?!?! Okay, spoken chinese rather than written. And it's not exactly improving by leaps and bounds either hahaha.

Maybe I should write more letters instead. Letters do all the above, and worse because it's more personal and plus it forces me to WRITE. Now whenever I pick up a pen to write, it feels unfamiliar, and my hand feels clumsy and stiff. Well that's how long I haven't been writing I guess :) I must re-learn pen tai chi and the art of being one with my pen. (peak: econs essay paper)

And for a (lame and rather unsubtle) full-circle effect, to round (pun intended!) up this rather random and boring post - No school = degeneration of brain! I sound strangely proud! Whatever, I'll shut up now! (and probably for a long time too! Until I find new inspiration and reason to blog!) Okay! That's all! Bye!

Just a gentle reminder to everyone

Then God said, "Let us make man in our image, in our likeness, and let them rule over the fish of the sea and the birds of the air, over the livestock, over all the earth, and over all the creatures that move along the ground."

So God created man in his own image,
     in the image of God he created him;
     male and female he created them.

In what ways are we made in God's image? God obviously did not create us exactly like himself because God has no physical body. Instead, we are reflections of God's glory. Some feel that our reason, creativity, speech, or self-determination is the image of God. More likely, it is our entire self that reflects the image of God. We will never be totally like God because he is our supreme Creator. But we do have the ability to reflect his character in our love, patience, forgiveness, kindness, and faithfulness.

Knowing that we are made in God's image and thus share many of his characteristics provides a solid basis for self-worth. Human worth is not based on possessions, achievements, physical attractiveness, or public acclaim. Instead it is based on being made in God's image. Because we bear God's image, we can feel positive about ourselves. Criticising or downgrading ourselves is criticising what God has made and the abilities he has given us. Knowing that you are a person of worth helps you love God, know him personally, and make a valuable contribution to those around you.

God saw all that he had made, and it was very good. And there was evening, and there was morning - the sixth day.

God saw that all he had created was very good. You are part of God's creation, and he is pleased with how he made you. If at times you feel worthless or of little value, remember that God made you for a good reason. You are valuable to him.

(taken from the Life Application Bible by Zondervan)

WHY SO SERIOUS?

It's a new year!!

Well usually I have no feeling (like mantou) when a new year comes, probably because my sense of date and time is so horrible HAHA. Oh today's...saturday. Oh, january already? I only know when the proper days and dates are during exam periods and on sundays :)

This year I especially have no feeling whatsoever because there's no school anymore!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

WAIL. As it happens to be very un-obvious and subtle, I MISS SCHOOL. LIKE SRSLY.

I miss having something to wake up for (despite it being hella early), I miss having something to do with my life (though I hated homework), I miss having everything planned out for me and everything determined for me. School is where you're safe, confined within the school building with nary a care in the world besides fretting about being caught for not doing homework. Real Life however...

Anyways to cut to the chase and to avoid a long, metophorically philisophical monologue - where part of the time half the sentences I'm typing I don't really understand myself, like, what in the world is "metophorically philisophical"?!? (Hehhh altogether there are 11 syllables dur hur hur) - the main point here is that I really don't want to grow up, and that THERE IS A SPIDER ON THE SPEAKER HELP MY LIFE IS IN DANGER.

Well that's about it for the solemn reflecting bit.

Been rather busy these past few weeks, mostly with going out with friends, going out with mom, going out with family, shopping, watching movies, playing sims 2 (I finally got it!! More on that later) and watching fullmetal alchemist woohooooooooooo.

I finally got off my lazy bum and uploaded my cambodia photos haha. Well I kinda miss it still, but part of the nostalgia has already worn off ever since coming back. Still I'm really glad I went :) And me being my usual duhhh self I can't find the words to describe everything properly. But I guess the closest is: After spending 8 days with people I barely knew initially they started to feel like family, and I do kinda miss the camaraderie felt during the trip. It was also really refreshing going for such a God-centered trip, as opposed to a usual school sabbatical trip thing. It had a different feeling, I can't quite put my finger on it, but I think it was a God-feeling.

I don't think I'm even making much sense here haha! But what the hay.

After cambodia went bintan with my family where I was ready to just SLACK. Hence didn't do much there heheh. But the villas are supaaa nice! Being monsoon season it was really windy (the sound of the wind rushing through the villas was like that of heavy rain) and the boat ride there was really rocky, almost too rocky for my stomach. Thankfully nothing came out. The food in banyan tree is really nice :)))))) I like food :))))))))))))))) Great I'm hungry now.

Then finally finally finally came back to singapore permanently and finally got to enjoy peace and quiet at home. But not before doing extremely last minute christmas shopping! Heheh. Er yeah. Like on 24th dec itself. Woohoo! Whilst shopping it suddenly occurred to me that I hadn't gotten sims 2 which I had wanted to get ever since Olevels ended. Unfortunately, at that time, knowing the insane amount of hours/days I would potentially spend just playing it I decided not to get it yet (and thankfully too because JC life is way too hectic and packed without me adding more to it haha) But now, after Alevels, since I am literally free as a bird why not fill my time up with virtual families that are sadly, under my dictatorship? (I TURNED OFF THEIR FREE WILL HA HA THEY ARE TOTALLY UNDER MY CONTROL) So I got it! Along with the complete collection of sims (1) in one cd :D And because they're both such ancient games (esp sims - it's an artefact) they were seriously cheap. Woohoo! Moral of the story is: wait 2++ years just to get the game you want. The price will drop way down.

Other than slacking at home my days were just filled with outings with friends etc etc. Went for a christmas party at steph's house, went for a mini extremely mini choir party at jo's, and on monday I was out the whole day! :O (amazing) Had a mini mini mini gb gathering with pet, amanda mak, manda, and melia at kap in the morning, and we later went to mg haha. Called deborah who joined us :) We went straight for the new pri sch playground HAHA. It is fun and some things are rather scary. Plus there is a mini rock climbing wall I was like ??!? when I saw it. I tried scaling it but it feels very light and insecure, like anytime the wall can just topple over from your weight. We walked around mg, which is like walking down memory lane. I still miss going to school there. Though the canteen is now hideous har har, all the mg-defining food stalls are gone and mg doesn't feel like mg anymore. Sat in the old 4H classroom and reminisced, manda and pet tried imitating different teachers coming into the classroom and starting lessons :P, and I sat with deborah at our usual spot in class and I tried picturing in my mind and reliving the memories of sitting there, stoning during lessons, doodling a thing or two in my school diary...

Randomly, the dent in the whiteboard which was caused by ms tan hitting the board a tad hard with her drumstick is still there hahaha.

When I remember everything that happened before, it feels like it never really happened, and that the only thing that's really happening is what's happening now, in the present. The only evidence I have of actually having a past are pictures, or even my blog posts, but even then they look foreign, like it's someone else's life and someone else's writings.  It was as if all these memories were planted into me, instead of me actually experiencing them. I just wish I had a video camera in my head, capturing everything - every thought, word, action that happened every day and every moment. Then, with playback, I would actually be able to relive every single moment, and not forget anything that ever happened, thus proving that it did happen, and that I'm not imagining it.

But then I guess I wouldn't be able to move on with my life. I'd be this hermit creature stuck in her room all day watching videos of events gone by, occasionally smiling or laughing to herself. And not to mention I'd need severe psychological treatment! Which cannot consist of watching charlie the unicorn HAHA. It's mentally damaging. :D

Okay anyways. Hahaha got it off my chest. After that went to meet jasper in orchard and we watched sherlock holmes! The movie's really cool!!!...once I got over the initial why-is-sherlock-holmes-like-that-it's-so-unnatural phase hahaha. My sister says robert downey jr's portrayal reminds her of House from, er, House. Then afterwards we went vivo to meet the rest for dom's final-outing-before-he-goes-army farewell thing. Haha it was fun as usual with all my friends. :) We went to the arcade hahaha FUN. The racing game was like WOOOHOOOO. Driving virtual cars is damn fun hahaha!! And the hitting the rats game damn funny also heehee whoever was holding the hammer was really all-out SMASHING. Then ser and I played this jungle shooting game and we just kept screaming the whole way HAHA. :D :D :D So that was monday yay so fun so fun. Thank God for friends, they seriously keep me sane (and keep me from becoming an anti-social hermit)

So wow, thus ends the longest post since ever hahahaha. I am still hungry and I feel like watching charlie the unicorn again oh noz.

Oh, and I kinda still want my 2009 back. But meh I'll get over it. :P

AH HA. I am finally back at home after travelling all around the world! Finally I can relax, chill out and carry out my long postponed post-As-slacking-plan which mainly consists of slacking. Actually it's more of a personal thing, like right after a big exam the first thing I want to do is stay at home all day and do nothing productive whatsoever with my time. I actually did that!...before the exams actually ended (boo) and I felt guilty all the time. But right after they ended poof my free time disappeared. Now is that weird or is that weird?? I myself find it extremely weird. And rather annoying.

Anyways NOW. Now I finally have the time to slack, and it's practically the end of the year already.

:(((((((((((( I'm just talking rubbish my brain's not thinking straight.

I'll do a long update another time, tired now. Just went to cambodia for mission trip, came back, and immediately got whisked away to bintan for a family trip. I miss missions and all the people who went!! :( I kinda wish I was back there now, talking rubbish with all the rest hahaha. And it was just nice to feel God's presence and feel His protection around us wherever we went.

And last night my family played rummikub for the first time HAHA.

I WANT TO BE A NINJAAAAAAAAAAAAA

HELLO. I have had two jabs and they make my arms bruise and my body shake.

Seniors night is on tuesday and for some reason my days until then are so packed full of stuff that I think I felt freer in the days before alevels were over haha.

Anyways on freeday, I mean friday, went with the cool friendz to escape! Which I haven't been to since pri 6 hahaha. They closed both the upside down inverter ride and panasonic :(( probably cause of safety issues but if I were to take them again it would bring back memories... Not that I have much of the inverter because I closed my eyes most of the time. But when we were riding the panasonic I always remember becky and tammy would scream like...mg girls whether they sat in the front or the back, and flory and I didn't scream, we just kept apologising to each other everytime we turned a sharp corner haha! Man I miss that ride.

Not that I didn't scream this time I went to Escape. To say I screamed a lot was an understatement hahaha. I am ashamed to say my guts were not as strong as they once were, or maybe it was cause I just lost the notion I used to have when I was pri 6 that screaming was for sissies. Either way now I admit I am scared to death on roller coaster rides that go up up up and then send you plummeting down down down. And slopes. I think I have a phobia of steep slopes, err slopeophobia. Haha. For the go-kart ride I didn't expect the slope to be so high and steep that when I saw it I just thought, "help". But I survived it and I survived the driving part too! I thought I was gonna crash but actually driving the go-kart was quite fun hahaha.

It was really weird cause we were like the oldest kids there amongst all the small kids and we were also the ones making the most noise HAHA. Especially during the viking ship ride where we were just screaming our lungs out and I felt sorry for the poor little girl next to me who had to endure our ear-shattering shrieks for the entire ride. Come to think of it I didn't really hear her scream at all. :\ Hm.

And the haunted house was the funniest cause I just kept my head close to ser's back the whole time and refused to look at anything, even though I knew there would be something coming up because everytime the people in front would scream. But I couldn't stand it they made the walkway so small that all the scary things are so close to you! I know I'm the biggest coward ever!! :P I think I'm scared of everything hahaha.

Well after all the screaming and what not my adrenaline store was actually depleted to such a level that if a serial killer was chasing after us I doubt I would have enough hormones to tell me to run away HAHA. Anyway I've had my fill of theme park thrills for now :)